Sunday, December 16, 2007
Well...I need to summaries everything from the begining...i've known this girl, who i've admire for a few years....but i did not tell anyone about it...i didn't even try to go up to her and make friends with her cause i do not know her name and seriously i don't have the guts to do so back then...Few weeks back, i finally heard from someone about her name...so i started to add her on msn and friendster...i started to even talk to her quite frequently...i do not really understand her much, but i'm trying as hard as i could to understand her completely...i'd even wait for her after work twice just to talk to her face to face...so that i can really "reach down deep" into her heart...Knowing that she had always admire someone...i knew my chances were low yet i still worked hard...i've tried to get use to her lifestyle to understand her better? weeks later....when i came back from Taiwan, i heard that she had started in an relationship with someone...at that time, everything came crashing down but i still insist to work hard...i've talked to her through sms everyday to check how she was, even when she was not feeling well...i sms her to check that she was okay...Just yesterday, we had a misunderstanding...and i think that she is angry with me...I've got to ask myself, why i'm i working so hard when i know nothing can be achieved in the end? Is this part of "growing up"? I really wonder....